Nishida, who has experienced retaking a year, repeating a year (three times), and dropping out (twice), will diagnose your life. <Advice from Ladybug> I am a 20-year-old female college student in her third year. I want to cut ties with my parents. I have zero stress tolerance, so I want to die right away. I have zero dating experience. I'm ugly. I have poor communication skills. I have a bad personality. I have no academic background. Below is a detailed explanation. My parents were wealthy and spent a lot of money on my education. I am still attending a private university from my parents' home. However, I hate my parents. I am grateful to them, but I have never wanted to express it in words or actions. When I become financially independent, I intend to cut ties with my family and live without repaying them. I feel guilty about this and am afraid that my parents will blame me, but I am a miser and don't want to give a single yen back to my parents, so I don't think I will repay them. However, I have an uncontrollable obsession with money, so I am hesitant to do so when I think about the cost of living alone. I was in a state of depression from junior high school to high school (I was never diagnosed with it), and whenever something even slightly painful happened, the option of death immediately came to mind. My pain was just anxiety about the future, not wanting to look for a job, or feeling like life was too much of a hassle, which are the kind of worries that everyone has in life, but even at those levels, I seriously want to die. I always feel like dying, and when I'm feeling good, I can turn my eyes away from it, but when I'm not feeling well, I can't stop thinking about death. I've been going through the same cycle for several years. I don't have the energy to go to counseling, nor the will to go that far to become a normal person. I've never dated a man in my life, and I've never fallen in love, or been in love with a man. I've been using a dating app, but messaging has become too much of a hassle and I can't keep it up. I've met people in person a few times, but I'm the type of person who can't see someone as a romantic partner until I've built a certain level of relationship with them, so I couldn't keep up with the fast pace of meeting a few times on the app and then confessing if there are no problems. I'm very scared to think that I'll die without ever falling in love. I feel like I like women, but I've never really dated one, so I don't know. I haven't had a crush on anyone for the past four years, so maybe I've lost my romantic feelings. It's painful. When I was a child, I was so ugly that I was seriously scared because I looked like a monster. Even now, every time I look at a picture of myself, I wonder if I'm so ugly that I'm a monster after all. I have a really bad personality, so I can't be happy for my friends' happiness. I'm always jealous and envious. I'm not interested in my friends' love stories or complaints. I listen to them half-heartedly, thinking, "I'm not interested." To begin with, I have very poor communication skills, so I don't have many friends. Even if I try to force myself to fit in with others, I can't hide my geekiness, so people keep their distance from me. I don't know how to interact with people. I have an abnormally high sense of pride, so I find myself bragging or talking about myself in unimportant things at random times. Although she graduated from a high school that was good for preparing for the exams, she never studied seriously for the entrance exams and ended up in an F-rank women's university. Despite not putting in any effort, she looks down on her classmates at the same university, saying, "It's just because I didn't study." She doesn't feel like she'll be able to get a job because she has no motivation to look for a job. In fact, she doesn't want to work. --- This is Laland Nishida's personal channel, "Laland Nishida's Unko Channel"! We'll be uploading videos about Nishida's favorite things, such as horse racing and reading! Sometimes we'll delve into Nishida and his cohabitation with his girlfriend! Please subscribe to the channel! #Nishida #Exams #MyLifeIsOver