The image of motherhood that we think of is infinite sacrifice and love. However, these days, the number of mothers in their 30s who say that their children are not lovable and that they lack maternal love is increasing. Why is that? They got married because they wanted to love more, and they became mothers because they wanted to be happier. But why is it that they are not happy living as mothers even though they have learned more than their mothers and are raising their children with more parenting information? The scarlet letter of the name of mother There is an invisible scarlet letter engraved on the hearts of mothers in Korea. 'Scarlet letter 1 - All women are born with maternal instinct?!' I thought that when I gave birth to a child, I would naturally develop maternal love and be filled with feelings of love, and the whole world would look beautiful. However, the reality is that it is much uglier than I thought, and I feel sad when I see the swollen red lump. Being stuck at home with a baby who doesn't speak to me 24 hours a day feels like being locked in a prison, painful. I feel like all my freedom has been taken away because of my child, so I hate and resent my child. Am I weird? Motherhood... Is it really an instinctive emotion as we thought? We will find out what motherhood is through the honest confessions of new mothers in their 30s. 'The Scarlet Letter 2 - Mothers are symbols of sacrifice and devotion?!' I thought all mothers were like that. I thought it was natural to abandon myself for the sake of my child. But why do I feel so afraid that I am losing myself more and more because of my child? As times change, women's education and status are becoming equal to men's every year. The sanctuary where people used to say, 'Women can't do it', 'What can women do?' is gradually collapsing. However, while the values ​​of women's social status are changing every year, the values ​​of 'mothers' remain the same as the strong maternal image of the 60s and 70s. The roles of mothers that have been 'naturally' given up for the sake of their children and 'naturally' given. The story of mothers in their 30s who are experiencing conflict between their 'natural life' and their egos. 'The Scarlet Letter 3 - Children are the greatest happiness of mothers?!' Are children really the greatest happiness for mothers? If someone were to ask this question, people would usually just ignore it, saying it was an obvious question. Recently, a research study was conducted on this question. According to the results of a study conducted on 3,070 mothers raising children, the greatest happiness among mothers' daily activities was 'when taking care of their children.' Is this an obvious result? However, the surprising fact is that the situations in which mothers felt the most depressed and tired were also 'when taking care of their children.' In other words, children are the greatest happiness for mothers, but also the greatest stress. So why do we only talk about the happiness of raising children and keep quiet about the stress of raising children? The red letter 'mother' is engraved in the hearts of Korean mothers. We will hear stories about motherhood, which has been taboo without us knowing, through the mouths of mothers in their 30s. Program name: Documentary Prime - Mother Shock Part 3 I am a mother Broadcast date: 2012.04.04 #Documentary Prime #New mother #Motherhood #Motherhood #Motherhood #Infinite sacrifice #Childbirth #Parenting #Parenting depression #Postpartum depression